DEAR DR. NERDLOVE: I am currently in a friends with benefits situation with a girl I met on Tinder. I have been single for about 5 years now and this is my second try at the friends with benefits situation. I have to say, so far, I don’t think I’m wired to be in this kind of relationship.

I always saw myself as a monogamist so sleeping around was not never really my thing. The first time, the girl had just gotten out of a long relationship and wanted to be her own person for a while. I thought to myself, I’ve been single for too long this is perfect to figure out what I want ! I ended it after a week because she didn’t want to cuddle or kiss. And she had already met another guy in that week anyway so that didn’t fly with me. That was last year. Now I signed up on Tinder and met my current friend in my second week. I keep my Tinder active but I don’t go on it anymore because I don’t like to sleep around with a bunch of women. I like security and simplicity. But this girl, we hit it off right away. Same kind of humor, same hobbies etc… On the second date with her, she told me that she had a lot of bad experiences with her exes and that she was just dating and taking things slow. That put me off a bit but we get along so much I didn’t want not to see her again. A few days later she invited me to dinner at her place and I made a move. I’ll skip the details but needless to say we are very much in sync.

She told me again that she wasn’t looking for a relationship, I told her that even though I am, I still want to see her again because we really do have a wonderful time when we are together. We text every day, pretty much every morning and night, she loves it when I kiss, cuddle with and hug her. We watch tv like I love to do when I am in a relationship.

We have known each other for about a month now and here’s the big problem, even though I get a big part of what I want, she still says things like: ”I’m gonna regret when you meet someone and I have to let you go. I just can’t be in a relationship right now.” and other variants of this. I tell her that I don’t want to meet other people and that this is enough for me right now, and it is. She also tells me that she is done with dating sites because there are too many weirdos (no s--t Sherlock) and that I am pretty much the only guy she is seeing. But I get very anxious because I don’t want her to meet someone else. I guess my problem is that I am split between an amazing girl with whom I get along amazingly that gives me almost everything I want, including amazing sex but with the thought in the back of my head that its only gonna explode in a horrible way sooner or later OR peace of mind and trying to find a better partner who actually is ready for a relationship…

Is there a way to change her mind? Is there a hidden message I’m not seeing ? What’s your take on the situation? Please help me figure this out… And thank you for your time.

Gizmoon

DEAR GIZMOON: Alright, Giz, first things first:

You can’t change another person’s mind. You can set things up so that the circumstances will allow her to change her mind, but you can’t force somebody to want something she doesn’t actually want. So let’s just drop that line of thinking and work on something that might actually be productive… and maybe lead to her deciding that she wants a relationship with you.

And we’re going to do that by examining just what it is she’s saying and doing. You seem to be missing some pretty heavy clues she’s dropping.

She’s out of a recent relationship and wants to take things slow. You’ve been respecting her desire to take things slow. That’s all to the good; you’re showing her that you respect her desires. You’re not pushing her boundaries, you’re being sweet and caring… basically, you’re showing that you’re potential boyfriend material while still having what is – ostensibly – a casual relationship.

Now, while she’s saying that she can’t be in a relationship right now, let’s look at what she’s doing. She’s told you that she’s given up on dating sites. She’s told you that you are the only person she’s seeing right now. And then there’s her phrasing: “I’m gonna regret when you meet someone and I have to let you go.” Look at that sentence very carefully. Notice who is leaving whom in this hypothetical scenario she’s worried about.

Here’s a hint: it ain’t her.

So what’s going on here? Well… I think what happened is that your snugglebunny laid down a position that she thought she wanted. She was – not unreasonably – not comfortable with the idea of being in a committed relationship so soon after the crap she went through with her exes. A month in, however, she’s starting to realize that she’s settling in with you. She likes what you two have together. She’s in all likelihood starting to wonder about maybe changing her mind.

However: you met on Tinder. While lots of people start long-term relationships with people they met there, Tinder still has a reputation as being primarily a hook-up app. It’s not unreasonable for someone to think that a guy she met off Tinder – one who agreed that they weren’t dating – might still be on the market. And I suspect that she feels like she can’t bring up maybe possibly being in a relationship with you. In fact, I’d be willing to bet that she’s worried that if she tries to broach the topic, it’s going to blow up the cozy little arrangement you two have. And so she’s sending up these little trial balloons – little ways of trying to sound out how you’re feeling about things.

So… I think that you and she may be closer to being on the same page than you think.

While I don’t know if you necessarily want to have the full Define The Relationship Talk, but you can certainly float a trial balloon of your own. You might casually mention that you’ve decided to get off Tinder. Or the next time she brings up the idea of “It’s going to suck when you find someone else”, you can tell her “Well I don’t know about that; I’m incredibly happy where I am,” without the “right now” qualifier. Saying “right now” or “for now” implies that you see an end coming. And I can promise you: if she’s worried that you still see this as a temporary thing, then “right now” is leaping out at her in full 3D and screeching violin chords.

Or there’s even the classic “Wait… were we supposed to be seeing other people? Because I haven’t met anyone who interests me even vaguely as much as you do.”

But the best advice I can give you is: enjoy what you have, right now. Every relationship ends until one doesn’t, and you have no real idea of knowing which it’s going to be. Even if you two do have the DTR conversation and agree that you’re committed, that doesn’t mean that things won’t end. Break-ups happen, regardless of the type of relationship you have.

But if you spend your time borrowing trouble from the future and dreading the possible end of the relationship, you won’t have the time or energy to appreciate what you do have. So take a deep breath and just savor things. Enjoy your time with your snugglebun. And if you find  an opportunity to gently (gently) see if she’s feeling differently about dating… well, there you go.

(Although, for the record: pretty sure she wants to actually date you, Giz and she’s hoping you’ll make the first move.)

Good luck.

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DEAR DR. NERDLOVE: I’m a man in his 20s, has had no sexual experience, & I’m autistic, which I suspect may be a cause of my current predicament.

I encountered a young woman I really like earlier this year & spent the summer getting to know her. I knew her long ago, but we spent a lot of time apart afterwards, not sure if that makes a difference. By early August, she & I started to develop chemistry, & it increased for about two weeks, but before I could tell her we should date, she started to cool down towards me over the course of the last week, & I’m afraid if I ask now she’ll say no.

Honestly the only reasons I took so long was because I never wanted to know a little bit more about her first, since over summer we mostly talked interests & didn’t get into deep stuff that often, & we gamed as much or more than talked. I also don’t know her real name. I was afraid she’d reject me on grounds of mutual ignorance, how we didn’t know everything about each other. I also didn’t realize how intensive our chemistry was until about a week ago, when she was starting to cool down. Our chemistry was not that hot to begin with, but it has occurred to me that she’s super-introverted.

I don’t care what she looks like as long as she’s a she, but it turns out she was just protecting her family. It had since occurred to me that my parents didn’t know everything about each other when they first started dating, & it has since occurred to me that it’s better to jump the gun too soon than too late, & it has since occurred to me that some women will pick men based on how they act than who they are.

Knowing this, I’m almost ready to ask, but what I want to know is, did I take too long, & if I didn’t, how do I know when it’s time? She’s warming up again, but not quite at her prior scale, though I suppose I shouldn’t expect overnight results.

Mysterious Romance

DEAR MYSTERIOUS ROMANCE: OK, MR, I feel the need to point out that you kinda buried the lede here. See, the important thing in your letter isn’t whether or not she’s cooling off or how hot your chemistry was for two weeks. It’s that you don’t know her real name, what she looks like. 

All of that? Kinda important, chief.

Here’s the thing: you don’t actually know anything about her. Not the things that matter. You know you have shared interests and surface commonalities but that’s pretty much it. And while those mutual interests are great for establishing a connection and a starting point for getting to know someone, they’re not the only thing that you need for a real connection. There are a host of deeper, more meaningful things you need for a relationship to work: shared values and goals, compatible lifestyles, and so on. You don’t know about any of those. Hell, you don’t even know her real name, my dude.  I know your parents didn’t know everything about each other at first, but I can all but guarantee you that they knew things like, names, ages, what they looked like… 

And all of that’s before we even get to the fact that not only have you never seen her before, but you haven’t met her in person. And while I know plenty of folks in relationships that started online — by which I mean through MMOs and forums, not dating apps — I know far, far more relationships that were hot and heavy until they actually met in person. Because here’s a truth about being human: we’re designed for face to face interaction. There are massive volumes of data that dictate whether or not we’re attracted to somebody, information that we pick up on without being aware of it. This ranges from not just their face or their body, but their body language, the timbre and pitch of their voice, how they smell, even just seeing them interact with other people. That’s all information that you can’t get without actually being in their physical presence. As the sage once said, love isn’t brains, children, it’s blood screaming to work its will. You may love someone for their mind, but you want them for their ass.

But again: that’s all secondary to the fact that you literally know nothing about her.

There’s also the fact that, well, you seem a little contradictory in terms of the chemistry you two supposedly had. On the one hand, you bring up that the chemistry had been increasing and getting intense, but then you say it wasn’t that hot to begin with. That kinda makes it sound like things weren’t really that intense, or only in comparison to start with. That makes me think that you may be rounding things up a lot, to the point of assuming things that aren’t actually there. That’s not great under the best of circumstances, and doubly so when — again — you don’t know the first thing about this person.

Now as a general rule of thumb: I’m a believer in “ask someone on a date when you know you want to go on a date with them.” In my bad old days, I spent far, far too much time waiting and hemming and hawwing and looking for either the perfect moment or the sign that I was guaranteed a “yes” if I asked. As a result: I didn’t go on many dates and spent a lot MORE time watching other folks go on dates with people I was interested in. Asking early on, when we’d had some good conversations, there was chemistry and a good connection meant that I got my answer early. Either she wasn’t interested, in which case, well, that sucks, but I could move on, or she was interested, in which case hey, I had a date.

However — and I can’t stress this enough — I knew their real names and what they looked like.

I get that you’ve got a crush on this person, MR, but the person you’ve got a crush on is mostly in your head. You don’t know who the person on the other end of that connection actually is. Not in the most important, vital ways. Pursuing this is only going to lead to heartache and disappointment. I think your best option is to let this go, and find someone who you actually can get to know.

Good luck.

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DEAR DR. NERDLOVE: I am a 20 year old student going into my second year at the University of Ottawa, and let’s just say that I have a bit of a troubled history when it comes to romantic relationships. I am very much a socially awkward and socially anxious person who has a fairly hard time working up the courage to talk to people and trying to find the right words to say in a conversation. This, combined with my difficulty understanding certain social cues and tendency to get obsessive about the people I have romantic interest in, can make it difficult to talk to the people I’m attracted to and to enter romantic relationships. Though it’s rather embarrassing to admit,  I have not been in one single relationship ever in my life, even though I’m 20 years old. Both of these problems (the social awkwardness and the tendency to get obsessive) impacted my first 2 semesters at Uni this year, which I will go into more detail below.

I have no idea why I had a crush on one of the girls who was in my psychology class during the 1st semester. We met at the global climate change protest march this past September. We travelled as a part of a residence group, but we didn’t hit it off or anything and we never talked to each other after the march. We were mere acquaintances at best and we didn’t seem to have that much in common. Nevertheless I developed this massive obsessive crush on her in the middle of October and I could not stop thinking about her until the end of the semester when I finally confessed my feelings to her via Instagram (she wasn’t interested and seemed a bit angry). It was really really bad and although I didn’t do anything inappropriate, I feel terrible because I creeped her out a lot. I probably should have slapped myself so I could wake up from my delusions and realise that she was not interested. To this day I am quite ashamed for how creepy I was during the 1st semester, because I don’t like or wish to make anyone feel unsafe in my presence. It was terrible and I’m trying my best to make sure that I don’t act that way again.

I really shot myself in the foot when it came to my relationship with a girl I was interested in the second semester. Unlike the person in the 1st semester, who I had a definite one sided crush on, this girl and I seemed to have a lot in common. At least in the beginning we seemed to have reciprocal feelings for each other. We were both involved in the board game club at school, we both like to read, we both enjoy biology, we both like visiting bookstores, and we both like listening to music outside of the mainstream. We had different upbringings as I was brought up halfway across the world in the suburbs of London, and she was brought up in the suburbs of Toronto. Other than that we had a fair bit in common. She had actually been quite friendly in the 1st semester as we shared an English class together and she talked to me in the residence, but it was only during 2nd semester when I joined the board game club and saw her at the Toronto bus station that we truly hit it off. We then went to a bookstore near the university although it was a disappointment when we found out that it was an academic only bookstore.

After the COVID-19 pandemic hit and everyone was sent home I really started missing her and I sent her messages on Instagram chat to try and talk to her. She got really annoyed with me and said that she didn’t want to talk to me anymore because I was invading her life and now I’m really convinced that I’ve shot myself in the foot because she was the first girl who ever openly expressed interest in me. To be honest with you I probably came across as a bit desperate when I was talking to her, which really turns women off.

Do you have any tips as to how to stop myself from obsessing over people and how to stop myself from shooting myself in the foot when it comes to potential relationships?

Thanks

TheLonelyBrit

DEAR THELONELYBRIT: Let’s start with the most obvious, TLB: you’re twenty. There’s nothing unusual or shameful about having not dated anyone yet. To be perfectly honest, I wouldn’t really regard most high-school relationships as being terribly significant. They get played up by pop culture, because the YA and teen audience has disposable income and time on their hands, but in the scheme of things, they’re ephemera. But part of the problem is that you’ve let yourself get twisted up by this supposed lack and I strongly suspect this is part of what’s driving you. It sounds to me like much of what’s going on is that you — like a lot of guys — are trying to make up for lost time.

Except the truth is that you haven’t lost anything, you haven’t “missed out” on anything and, frankly, there’s nothing especially magical or significant about relationships in your 20s that isn’t just as magical and significant about relationships in your 30s, 40s or onward. A lot of what people romanticize about young love is mostly limerence, new relationship energy and a hell of a lot of “I have no idea what I’m doing.” And as someone who has been there, done that and had more heartbreak than I care to think about (and even more shitty relationships) in my teens and 20s… honestly, people have a tendency to sand off the rough parts of what those relationships were actually like.

What I’m saying is that nostalgia is a hell of a drug.

Now the first issue you’re running into is that, frankly, you’re seriously over-investing in people. I mean, let’s look at your first crush. You literally knew nothing about her except that you found her attractive. That’s not the basis for… anything, really. Certainly not for making a huge confession about your feelings. I mean, on a strictly practical level, what’s there to be said besides “I think you’re pretty?”

However, I will give you this: sending a DM — singular — over Instagram isn’t the worst thing in the world. A little intrusive, a little presumptive and weird, but not intensely creepy or something to flagellate yourself over. Almost every female or femme-presenting friend I have gets randos in their DMs whenever they post pictures of themselves, and most of the time, they forget about it as soon as they delete the message. So I think you can let yourself off the hook for this one. It’s not a great look, but it’s not the sin that can never be forgiven. I’d say “just don’t do it again,” except… well, you did.

Your second crush is where you went overboard. Messaging a friend to talk is one thing. Messaging them over and over again, especially if they’re not responding, is intrusive and makes people uneasy. It’s a sign that you don’t have high emotional intelligence, or that you’ve started to fixate on someone in a way that makes them deeply uncomfortable. And while you know and I know that you didn’t mean any harm… your friend didn’t. And to be perfectly frank: I kind of suspect you were rounding up the amount of interest she might have had for you.

The second issue is the way you’re going about things. I am not a fan of “big confessions”, especially where romance and attraction are involved. While I get that those big, dramatic confessions make for great drama in shoujo manga and YA novels, in real life, they have a tendency to go over like a lead balloon. In a very real way, what you’re doing when you make a “confession” like that is that you’re dropping your feels in someone’s lap and asking them to do something about it. I’m a much bigger believer in being proactive and taking ownership and responsibility for your own feelings. So rather than confessing — whether in person, over text, a note or a DM — it’s better to ask someone out on a date. Not to “hang out some time”, not to “get together”, but a date. One that is very clearly a date. Not only is this more direct and active, but it also tells the person you’ve asked out that you’re interested in them in a non-platonic manner; folks very rarely ask someone they don’t like out on dates.

But  frankly, all of these are secondary issues. These aren’t the issue that you need to focus on. The overlaying problem — the one that’s at the core of all your other issues — is that you seem to have some form of emotional disregulation going on. It sounds like a lot of your life comes down to “you’re at a 10 and you need to be at a 2”, and it seems like you struggle with keeping things at a reasonable level. This might be a comorbidity with another issue, it could be a chemical imbalance, or possibly even a behavior you’ve over-learned over time. Now, as I’ve said many times before: Dr. NerdLove is not a real doctor, which is why I think the best thing you can do is talk to an actual mental health professional. Considering that this is a common occurrence for you, I think your first step should be finding a psychologist and talking with them about your issues. Considering that you’re currently a university student, you should take advantage of the resources your university has to offer; if there isn’t a counselor in the student health services, they can almost certainly provide you with a referral. And while I realize COVID can make it difficult to get in-person appointments, most therapists do assessment and sessions via telemedicine these days.

Talking to a psychologist will help you get a handle on what’s going on, give you some direction on how you can help manage your emotions more effectively and possibly recommend courses of treatment that’ll help get things under control. I’d suggest you start there; if you don’t treat the underlying causes, you’re not going to have much success dealing with the symptoms.

Good luck.

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