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How Do I Tell My Dates I Don’t Want to Have Sex… Ever?

Ask Dr. Nerdlove by by Harris O'Malley
by Harris O'Malley
Ask Dr. Nerdlove | January 18th, 2021

DEAR DR. NERDLOVE: I was wondering if there was some advice you could send my way regarding the dating scene. Let me start off with some context. I am currently a college freshman nearing the end of the year and I have followed much of your advice over the last several months. I’ve improved my wardrobe, become much more self confident, become a much more attractive person, and have become much better at approaching women and carrying on conversations thanks to your help. With your help, I’ve gone from looking like an acne ridden My Chemical Romance member, to being frequently told (mainly by women) that I look like Andrew Garfield (I can totally live with that comparison).  

The main thing I wanted to ask you about though, is kind of a problem I’ve encountered. I am looking to be in a relationships but one thing keeps coming up that I think could be a problem with that, I’m not really interested in sex. It just doesn’t interest me. Porn has never done anything for me. I’m drawn more towards that connection and companionship with another human being.  I ask friends for advice on what to do, but when I get to the part about my complete lack of interest in sex and I get blank stares like I just told them that I’m a Neo Nazi.

I’m not sure what to do now, going out on the dating scene seems like it could be really difficult now despite my increased skills with women. I understand that sex is a major part in most relationships and it just seems like it would be a total deal breaker to someone if they realize that I’m really not into it at all. I’m completely lost and have no idea what to do.

I’m very aware of the fact that i’m an irregularity on this and advice on what someone in my predicament would be greatly appreciated. 

Mister No Lover-Lover.

DEAR MISTER NO LOVER-LOVER: First of all: congratulations on all the improvements that you’ve made! You’ve put in a lot of work, and I’m glad you’re enjoying the progress you’ve achieved. You should be proud of what you’ve accomplished.

I also want to make sure that we get this out there right off the bat: you don’t have a “problem”. You aren’t broken, you’re not weird or defective. Your situation’s pretty uncommon, MNLL, but uncommon isn’t the same as “broken” or “wrong”.

The most likely thing here is that you’re asexual — that is, you simply have no libido or interest in sex. And while that’s not common, it’s fairly well documented, especially as more and more asexual people have been open about their experiences and identities.

So the question is: what do you do about this? And that’s where things come down to how you feel about all of this. Do you want to want sex and your lack of a libido bothers you? Or are you actually ok with who you are as a person and the issue is that other people’s reactions bother you?

If your lack of interest in sex bothers you because you WANT to want sex, then it’s not a bad idea to rule out any physical or medical issues. It certainly wouldn’t be a bad idea to visit your doctor and see if there are any underlying issues.

Low libido in men can have any number of causes from low levels of testosterone, to prescription medication (especially antidepressants), or psychological issues. If you’re not even getting erections – which, I stress, don’t always correspond to sexual arousal – then you may have a physical problem and you should consult with a urologist.

(Standard disclaimer: Doctor NerdLove is not a real doctor. Also, Dr. Google will just tell you it’s cancer.)

But it is also entirely possible that you’re a healthy young man who just has no interest in sex and that’s fine. That’s just who you are and how you roll. In that case, the best thing to do is to embrace it as part of what makes you uniquely you.

Now to one sure: this can make dating more complicated. Asexual folks make up a very small percentage of the population. Most people interested in romantic relationships will be expecting sex to be part and parcel. And in fairness, sex and sexual compatibility is an incredibly important part of relationships; not having any interest in sex is going to be a serious deal-breaker to a lot of women — likely the majority of women you meet.

But notice very carefully that I said sexual COMPATIBILITY. Sexual compatibility is a multi-axis graph. It’s more than just matching libidos or both of you being kinky in the same way. It’s also about having an outlook on sex and the sexual side of your relationship that line up in ways that work for both of you.

There are, for example, women out there who are ALSO asexual. There are women who can’t have traditional forms of sex for any number of reasons. There are also people for whom a sexual connection isn’t as important in their romantic relationships. There are women who are more interested in emotional intimacy and companionship, and others who are down for an open or non-monogamous relationship that allows them to get their sexual needs met elsewhere.

Similarly, you may find women who are cool with your lack of a libido, if you’re willing and able to give a helping hand for their pleasure and satisfaction, whether that means oral sex, using toys or giving a masturbatory assist. You may not be into sex itself, but you may well enjoy being able to please your partner, even if you don’t get a sexual thrill out of it.

That’s all something for you to determine for yourself and how you want to proceed with relationships in the future.

Now with that being said, It is going to be important that you’re interested in to be upfront and direct about this from the beginning with the women you’re interested in dating. If someone is looking for a standard-issue romantic relationship, including a sexual connection, then they’re not going to be right for you, and you’re not going to be right for them. It’s better to get that out there early on, so that neither of you are wasting each other’s time. This may mean that you’ll have more luck meeting people to date through your social circle and in your daily life — where people will get to know you as a person — than on dating apps. But at the same time, by making it clear that you’re not up for or interested in sex in your app profile, you may be cutting down the number of people who will swipe on you or message you, but you’ll also be ensuring that the ones who do are looking for someone just like you.

In the meantime, you should visit the Asexuality Visibility and Education Network at asexuality.org. They have a host of resources available, as well as forums and links that will help you find your community and help reassure you that you’re not unusual or alone in this.

Good luck.

Please send your questions to Dr. NerdLove at his website (www.doctornerdlove.com/contact); or to his email, doc@doctornerdlove.com

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Is It Too Late To Save My Marriage?

Ask Dr. Nerdlove by by Harris O'Malley
by Harris O'Malley
Ask Dr. Nerdlove | January 15th, 2021

DEAR DR. NERDLOVE: Longtime reader. I absolutely love your advice. Thank you for everything you’ve done for people, including myself. I’ve never written in but your articles have helped me through a lot. But now I need something more specific. I don’t think I’ve seen this yet. Here we go.

I am a 29 year old female, married to a 32 year old male. We have a 1 year old daughter together. Unfortunately, for most of our relationship I have been emotionally abused by him. Gaslighting, trying to separate me from family and friends, downplaying my accomplishments, yelling, lots of yelling, calling me names, and abusing alcohol; he’s done everything. I, luckily, have pretty high self-esteem and never fell for the ways he would try to separate me from people. I still have close friends and are close to my family. And they have been my rocks through some real torture.

I can’t say his negativity hasn’t had an effect on my self-esteem, or zero effect on relationships. I’m still nervous to invite friends over, worried he will ignore them (he’s done that) and make them feel really uncomfortable. So I go to their house. There’s a lot of things I realized I’ve been doing to make him more comfortable at the expense of my discomfort. Also, so we don’t fight.

It kills me I never left him. I did once but he got me back. I view myself as this strong woman, but it’s been eye-opening to go through something I’d never thought I would go through. And put up with things I never thought I’d put up with.

I hope I’ve given enough background because all of this is to say, about 3 months ago, he had a realization as to how he was treating me. He came home profusely apologized and admitted there was something wrong with his brain. He has sought help and is seeing a therapist. He has cut back on drinking A LOT. And I finally see the original man I fell in love with. At least parts to him. He’s starting to love my family again, we are having fun again, he is actually helping me with our child, he is listening and talking to me more. The list goes on. It’s everything I’ve wanted except…

It might be too little too late. I keep having flashbacks of all the s--tty things he’s done to me. I keep having panic attacks and my therapist says I have PTSD. Even in these good times I’m on guard. Idk if that will ever go away. The other part is, it’s not like he’s made a full 180. He has A LOT to work on. It’s wonderful he’s putting in the work, but he still has anger issues, he still has problems with my friends, and he has yet to recognize how his childhood has played such a big part on who he is (he had an alcoholic, angry dad). He has told me his childhood was great. From the little snippets I’ve heard, it was not.

I realize this evolution is a process. I’m trying to be patient and kind. But it’s really hard. Really really hard. And I feel so bad because I want to leave him. He’s finally doing the things I’ve asked him to do for years and I still want to leave. I don’t know if I’ll ever be over what I’ve been through, what he’s done and said to me.

Let me note, as the father of my child, he will always be in my life. And I want him to be a part of our daughters life. This isn’t a situation where I am worried for her. He is a good dad. So if we separate I’d like us to remain friendly.

Am I being selfish? What kind of person doesn’t leave after someone slams cabinets but leaves after that same person starts to love and appreciate them? I’m just exhausted. Absolutely exhausted. And don’t know what to do.

-Tired

DEAR TIRED: This is the kind of discussion that’s really hard to have, because it runs headlong into so many complications. On the one hand, there’s the honest question about whether an abuser can change. It can be incredibly tempting to want to believe that things are getting better. After all, one of the common stages of an abusive relationship is a return to the honeymoon period where one’s abuser will have made all sorts of promises to get better and seems to be following up on them. This can confirm long-held desire on the part of the person who’s being abused that the abuse was a glitch in the system. This was just a temporary problem and now things will get back to where they need to be. Except it’s not an improvement; at best it’s the eye of the hurricane. At worst… well, it was a way of getting the person being abused to invest even harder and make it more difficult for them to leave.

At the same time, we also want to make space for people to improve, fix things and become better people. A culture where you’re forever stuck being defined by your worst moment is one that actively disincentivizes improvement and change. And it also makes it harder to consider how many circumstances come about because people — both abuser and victim — were failed at multiple levels by people who could’ve and should’ve interceded earlier.

But on the third hand… well, there’re plenty of folks who will take joyous advantage of the desire for a redemption narrative without having actually done the work necessary to achieve redemption or to make actual and substantive changes.

And on the fourth hand — because we’re just Goro from Mortal Kombat now — there’s the fact that this sort of discussion can elide over or ignore the long-term effects that abuse can have on someone.

Y’know. Kind of like what you’re experiencing, Tired.

Now, right from the jump, I want to emphasize something: this wasn’t your fault. The fact that you didn’t leave him when you feel like you should have doesn’t mean that you did anything wrong. It means that you’re human and had a human reaction to being in a s--tty situation. The fact that you were abused doesn’t mean that you’re not a strong woman, but the fact that you have endured it, come through to the other side and have started the healing process does mean that you’re strong as hell. Nobody is immune to being taken advantage of, to being abused or manipulated by someone they love and trust. It’s not a sign of weakness, naivete or stupidity to have trusted someone who abused that trust; that sin falls on the abuser, not the person being abused. Recognizing that, accepting that and being willing to forgive yourself — even though you objectively didn’t do anything wrong — is important.

It’s also good that your husband has recognized how much harm he’s doing and has done and is trying to make things right. It’s admirable that he’s actually trying to do the work to fix himself and putting in the work to try to make amends and be the person you originally fell for. And for the purposes of this column, we’re going to assume that he’s being 100% sincere. Because, frankly, whether he’s sincere or not, it doesn’t really change what I have to say:

No, it’s not selfish for you to leave. In fact, it’s important to be willing to take care of yourself and your daughter. While the abuse seems to have ended, your husband is improving and your relationship is moving in positive directions… those changes don’t undo the damage that was done. You’re no longer being actively harmed, but you still have those wounds and scars. You still have that very understandable trauma-response. All of that takes time to heal and the healing process can be messy and bring up a lot of complicated and painful emotions. It’s also true that your husband actively damaged your trust and made it difficult, if not impossible, to feel safe or secure around him. That doesn’t go away because he’s doing better. That fades with time, with healing and with your husband working on his end to re-earn your trust. But that can be difficult to do when you’re still — again, understandably and reasonably — afraid. It can be hard for you to decide whether you can forgive him or if he can re-earn your trust if you’re caught between that flinch response and trying to tell yourself that it’s wrong to have it.

(It’s not, but that emotional conflict can make it difficult to trust your own judgement.)

And then there’s the fact that while he’s made improvements — and again, that’s commendable — he hasn’t completely changed yet and, as you said, there’s still a lot to be worked on. While somebody doesn’t need to make a 100% change or be in perfect working order to be working towards fixing the damage they’ve done, there’re still things that can cause more strife in the process. If he’s still having anger issues, or problems with your social circle, those are things that can cause backslides in fixing your relationship or damage it further.

Plus: you’ve got PTSD. You’re having panic attacks. That’s real, that’s legitimate, and that’s something that needs to be addressed. It’s hard to work on your recovery when you live with the very thing that triggers those panic attacks and PTSD episodes. In fact, that could very well make things worse — even as your husband tries to make things better.

And while it may seem weird or callous to say this: that can also make it hard for him on his recovery. If you’re flinching every time he reaches for you, that can f--k with his head too and create this sense of “wait, I’m trying so hard, why isn’t this fixing things?”

So no, Tired, I don’t think it’s bad or selfish or cruel that you’re thinking of leaving, even as he’s finally doing all the things you asked for. I think you’re a reasonable person in an unreasonable situation, someone who’s been hurt significantly and deeply, and who’s only started to heal. I think you should prioritize yourself and your need to heal right now, and being in a relationship with him right now may well be getting in the way of that. So if you feel like leaving would be best for you and your daughter — and it certainly sounds like it would be — then by all means, do so. Leaving doesn’t mean that you’re punishing him for trying to get better, it means that you’re putting on your own oxygen mask before helping him with his. You’re taking care of yourself and also giving him the space to take care of himself and do the work to get better and create a place where the damage can be mended.

It also means that if this isn’t sincere, you’re protecting yourself and getting out of a bad situation.

But here’s the thing: leaving now doesn’t have to mean leaving forever. If — and it’s a mighty big if — your husband is sincere about fixing things and is working his ass off to get better and make amends, if after you heal, you find that he is able to prove that he’s worthy of your trust again and you find that you’re able to forgive him and take him back, and he’s able to make amends, you can start a new relationship with him. Obviously things can’t go back to how they were, but if things all line up correctly, you and he can see about possibly working to build something new, different and hopefully better.

Oh, and one more thing: if you find that you can’t forgive him or trust him again, that’s fine. That doesn’t make you a bad person; it just means that you were hurt badly enough and your relationship was damaged enough that there isn’t any fixing it. And while it can be sad if that’s the case, the fact that it is sad doesn’t change things. Nor can his improvement be contingent on your forgiving him or taking him back. Even if he is sincere, even if he does fix himself and becomes a better person… that doesn’t obligate you to forgive him or take him back, especially if you find that you simply can’t. While it’s important for him to work on fixing his problems and become a better person, that can’t just be because he gets forgiven in the end — it ultimately has to be because he wants to be better, period. And if you can’t forgive him or take him back… well, it sucks, but part of working towards redemption means accepting the consequences and working on being better anyway.

It’s a s--tty situation and I’m sorry you’re going through it. Prioritize your own emotional health and safety right now. That’s not selfish. That’s smart.

Good luck.

Please send your questions to Dr. NerdLove at his website (www.doctornerdlove.com/contact); or to his email, doc@doctornerdlove.com

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Why Does My Friend Keep Going Back to Her Toxic Ex?

Ask Dr. Nerdlove by by Harris O'Malley
by Harris O'Malley
Ask Dr. Nerdlove | January 14th, 2021

DEAR DR. NERDLOVE: One of my very close friends, we’ll call her Ellen, has been on-again-off-again dating this guy, we’ll call him Cody, for years. Long story short, he’s bad news and I have made my feelings about him very clear. He’s cheated on her multiple times and she stayed with him.

About a year and a half ago, she moved in with Cody, after literally everyone in her life (me included) told her not to, that she’d be getting herself into a situation that she’d ultimately regret. Wouldn’t you know, about a few months ago, she told me that her and Cody broke up for good. I praised the heavens, but I also took it with a grain of salt.

Because I’m the only person left that she hasn’t alienated in one way or another, she asked me to help move her out of her and Cody’s apartment while he was at work one day, to which I agreed.

Now, a little about Ellen. Honestly, I love her, but she’s a trainwreck. She can’t seem to hold down a job. She’s not very considerate. She’s a little selfish. She’s technically homeless and living out of her car, even though her uncle generously took her in. She’s got a ton of baggage that she just seems to unload onto me every time I see her. Honestly, being her friend is a bit exhausting.

A couple days ago, my boyfriend informed me that Ellen is hanging out with Cody again. Cue the biggest eye roll of the century. If I could roll my eyes out of my head, I would. Here we go again. Although, I can’t say I was completely surprised. Not to mention that she told my boyfriend one night when they were smoking and she told him to keep it a secret from me because she knew I’d lay into her about how he’s bad news and he’s just keeping you on a leash and once a cheater, always a cheater and all that fun stuff. Honorable mention: ‘If he loves you, he wouldn’t do this to you.’

I’ve tried to reason with her multiple times, but it seems like everything I say goes in one ear and out the other. Hell, I’ve even gone behind her back and talked with her parents about it, tried to get them to smack some sense into her. Nothing.

I’m not trying to victim-blame here–speaking from personal experience, I know how hard it is to leave an abusive relationship–but I’m at the end of my rope with this. I’m not sure that I can say or do anything else to make her realize that the best thing she could do right now is to leave him behind for good. For real this time.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

He’s No Good

DEAR HE’S NO GOOD: You can’t save someone from their own bad choices, HNG, especially if they don’t want to be saved.

We talk about this a lot when it comes to abusive relationships, but it’s just as true when it comes to people mundanely s--tty partners: you can’t force someone to end a bad relationship. It is only going to end when they’re ready for it to end and not a moment before. And even then, it can take more than a few tries before it ends permanently.

One of the things that can be useful to understand about why people keep going back to s--tty partners — even when they know they’re s--tty — is because the person is getting something from this. Now to be sure, that doesn’t mean that whatever they’re getting is good for them or positive… it just means that it’s meeting some need or desire or fitting into a particular niche in their lives. Some people feel a need for drama in their lives; having a relationship that’s always in crisis or making them miserable fills that desire to be at the center of the storm. Some folks stay in the relationship because they feel like it’s all they can have. Others stay because they feel like they should be able to fix things or because they think that they are somehow responsible for them. It may be a continuation of a pattern that they’ve had in their lives or they were taught that this is what love and relationships look like. It could even be a source of psychic self-harm, a way of punishing themselves for some sin or defect.

But until they’re ready to recognize that this is bad for them and they’re ready to break that particular pattern, there’s nothing that anyone can do for them. They have to decide it for themselves.

Now, it may well be worth your time to consider your relationship with Ellen. If this is a friendship that’s a drain on you, it may well be that you need to ask yourself what you’re getting from being friends with her vs. what you’re putting in. If it’s all give and no receive, if you’re treated as her crashpad as she flits from crisis to crisis… well, then it may be that you need to be a friend to yourself and peace out, cub scout. Or at least dial things back and make Ellen much less of a priority in your life. But if you honestly think that she can improve and that getting away from Cody will help… well, the best you can do is be there for her when she’s ready to leave. If that’s the case, then i think you need to lay that flat out. Tell her: “Look, you know how I feel about Cody. He’s a s--thead who treats you badly, and I think this is going to go the way this always does. I’m not willing to talk about him or hang out with the two of you again or see him. But if and when you’re ready to leave, I will be there for you — no judgement, no questions asked, no ‘I told you so’. But until then, this is the last I want to hear about him.”

And then leave it there. There aren’t any magic words that will make her change her mind. You can’t chase him away, and you can’t catch someone who’s determined to fall. You have to let them make that choice for themselves. The only thing you can do is be ready  and available to help — without judgement — when she’s finally ready to leave.

Good luck.

Please send your questions to Dr. NerdLove at his website (www.doctornerdlove.com/contact); or to his email, doc@doctornerdlove.com

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