DEAR DR. NERDLOVE: Hi Dr. NerdLove,

I know I’m young (in my early 20’s) but I seem to be undateable  and I want to know what I’m doing wrong. My last relationship was 5 yrs ago & he was my best friend beforehand. But now? I will get the odd guy telling me I’m hot, but then also telling me I’m not “his type”, which is fine ‘cuz they’re normally perverts anyways. No one seems interested in me and I want to know why.

I have guy friends, in fact I find it easier to hang out with the dudes than to deal with female drama. It’s taken some therapy but I’m at the point where I love myself both mentally & physically. I’m a strong independent woman who has an extremely big heart and put others ahead of myself to my own detriment (I’m working on that).

I have no problem asking guys out but often get turned down even though we may have been flirting for months. This makes me emotional & feel unlovable.

I am very witty/sarcastic and I am not afraid to show my weirdness in most settings, which makes me think that’s what guys don’t like…

The last guy I asked out wasn’t interested but totally used me for physical attention. He liked a mutual friend of ours. I asked what was so great about her & he said “she was sweet & caring”. But the thing is is she isn’t, she’s very selfish but can put on a show. The worst part is when they started dating, she didn’t really like him but liked the attention. Meanwhile, when he came over I’d make him a meal I know he’ll enjoy, including his favorite pie… which I’d go to 4-5 different stores looking for the special ingredients. We’d banter, talk openly/honestly & cuddle. Yet I wasn’t good enough.

I would say immaturity on his part but ALL guys seem to be that way with me.

What am I doing wrong?

Lost and Lonely

DEAR LOST AND LONELY: The problem with letters like this is that there’s really no way to diagnose things without following you around for days or weeks to observe like I’m David Attenborough. And even then, that may not give a conclusive answer. I’ve had times where I’ve done precisely that: gone out with friends to observe them and see what they might be doing wrong… and the answer was “nothing”. It’s an incredibly frustrating situation because sometimes the issue has nothing to do with you and everything to do with circumstance. It could be that you’re dealing with immature guys, it could be that you’re trying to date people who simply aren’t your “tribe”, as it were, or that you’re simply in the wrong place at the wrong time and you might do better in a completely different environment.

With that having been said, one thing you mention that leaps out at me is this:

“I have guy friends, in fact I find it easier to hang out with the dudes than to deal with female drama.”

I see this surprisingly often in a lot of women your age — a sort of “I’m not like those other girls” rejection of feminine behavior or presentation as somehow lesser. It’s something that crops up a lot in pop culture, from songs to movies to TV shows… and I think that could be part of the issue. Not that there’s something wrong with having a more masculine presentation or interests, but in the “but ewww that girly shit” attitude. It creates this artificial divide that ends up making other women “the enemy” when they don’t need to be, and it can make it harder for you to find both friends and valuable sources of support and information.

I suspect part of the issue you’re having right now is that the guys you’ve been hanging with don’t see you as a potential partner; they see you as a bro. What they’re looking for in a partner is someone who’s a little more traditionally femme — or at least, who’s more performatively feminine. Which, hey, cool that’s what they’re into… but that’s not what you are offering. And I think your seeing “female drama” as something to avoid or be above is keeping you from recognizing that. You see what you have to offer as being so much better and you’re getting frustrated that guys don’t see that… which isn’t what’s happening here.

The problem you’re having is that these guys enjoy your company, they enjoy flirting and they like that you’re willing to do things for them… but that doesn’t mean they want to date you. Plenty of folks like to flirt for fun, they appreciate someone being attracted to them and they certainly like having friends who’ll make their favorite dessert. But that doesn’t translate into “they’ll also be attracted to you”.

It’s not that what those women offer is worth less than what you have to offer or that you’re not good enough, it’s just that she represents what those guys want. As Dita Von Teese is fond of saying: you can be the sweetest, juiciest peach in the world, but some folks just don’t like peaches.

Now that doesn’t mean that the answer is to start acting entirely differently and being more feminine in your presentation and behavior. I think the answer is learning to recognize when that’s what guys are looking for in a potential partner, so that you don’t waste your time pining for dudes who simply don’t want you. There’re guys who prefer women who’re more gender non-conforming in behavior and who act more like “one of the guys”; the problem is that you don’t seem to be trying to date them. Instead, you’re spending a lot of time and effort on guys who may like that you’re into them and what you’ll do for them… but that’s as far as it goes. And honestly, there’s no profit to trying to convince them to give you a chance. The amount of energy you’re putting in will never be commensurate with the results.

I think it’d be a good idea to work on not seeing being more traditionally femme as bad or lesser, if only because it means you’ll have a larger pool of friends and support to draw from. But I also think that if you’re happy with who you are, then you need to look for guys who are looking for that, instead of lamenting the dudes who just don’t want peaches.

Good luck.

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DEAR DR. NERDLOVE: I’m a student, 22 years old and almost graduated. I got a nice part-time job (and soon a full-time job!), workout once a week. I do not have a problem making people laugh or give serious advice when they need it. People think I’m generally feeling good, but the fact is I do not feel that at all.

I’ve stumbled on your site about 2 years ago and I can’t thank you enough for all the delightful stories and articles you came up with. During that time, I was in a relationship and everything felt good but the relationship turned out to be really toxic. She lied to me about important things for months, she would make me feel like she was the only one approving me and I should be lucky that I even had a girlfriend. I kept up with it and forgave her everything because I did believe her and I was scared that when this would be over, I would be alone forever. Fast forward to this year (January) and some exchanges overseas, she cheated on me and decided that she didn’t want me anymore because she was not in love with me anymore. I was heartbroken and then the fear really kicked in: I would be alone forever.

After reading the books you wrote (and even The Game and Rules of the Game by Strauss) I thought even I could be successful again in finding love and possibly ‘the one’. But it turns out, that even when I remember all the advices and approach tactics, I can’t get over the fear of approaching women. I do not have that many friends and when I finally go out with them and miraculously use an approach (the famous ‘ninja or pirate’ question you came up with) and almost every time ignoring the ‘3 second rule’, women answer it with a laugh and I just completely fall still. I can’t get a conversation going or even a single word out of my mouth and I just smile and slowly turn away while fighting the dragons in my head that say ‘you are useless AF’. After each of these fails, the dragons seem to grow stronger and its becoming harder to fight with them. The feeling of ‘you will not feel love again and be without a girlfriend forever’ grows bigger even though I know I’m only 22 years old and feel like being a little child complaining about nothing.

The fact that I am insecure about my appearance also doesn’t help. It became a little bit better by following the rules explained in the books (get some fitting clothes, change things up etc.), but I am still worried about the scars I have on my face as a result of the wide variety of pimples I had when I was around 16. Even now, sometimes one of them just pops up at the wrong moment, figuratively saying ‘F you, I won’t let you get near girls today.’ And ruining my self-esteem.

So yeah Doc. I feel like a whining little child (and even more so by writing you) that just exaggerates the problems. But I just feel so miserable by now after it seems like I’m unable to follow the advice given to me and I’m starting to get real tired of fighting the dragons that keep telling me I will be alone forever to the point I do not want to approach women because I’m scared of the internal aftermath that I need to keep up with.

I am really at a loss here Doc. I know you are busy and I am probably sounding like a dick, but I really do not know what to do.

Sincerely,

The Whiny Little Child

DEAR WHINY LITTLE CHILD: Hey WLC, here’s how you can de-intimidate yourself: stop approaching women.

That is: stop treating approaching  women as being an all-or-nothing event where you have to perform everything correctly or deal with the consequences. You’re psyching yourself out by making every single interaction with women a massive event. This ain’t Wrestlemania dude; you don’t have an audience of thousands watching to see someone give your ego the Stone Cold Stunner. All you’re doing is simply starting a conversation with someone. That’s it.

That’s why you’re choking as soon as you get past the opener. Because you’re seeing this as a “if I do everything right, I get sex, if I do everything wrong, I get DOOOOOOMED” scenario, you’re triggering a fear response. If you disentangle the idea that this is a pass/fail scenario, with the future of your sex-having days on the line from simply talking to someone, it becomes much easier.

I want you to do a little mind experiment for me. Imagine if you were going to go up to your six year old cousin and say “hey”. Are you going to have the same freak-out reaction? Of course not; even if your cousin is absurdly rude to you when you say “hi”, it’s just kind of ridiculous. You aren’t intimidated by their rejection because hey, they’re a freaking six-year old. Their judgement doesn’t have impact on you.

Similarly: what if a stranger – someone who’s clearly not well – comes up and tells you that he knows, knows that you’re with the aliens who’ve been beaming messages into his brain and he wants you to  know that he knows that you know that he knows that you’re a bad man. Are you going to let that define your self worth? Same story: almost certainly not.

So what’s the difference between these interactions and the stranger at the bar? The value you put into it. You are putting far too much value into them and their opinion when their opinion is worth as much as the crazy stranger or your bratty cousin.

You need to decouple the idea of value from approaches. All you are going to do for the next… oh, let’s say 20 cold approaches, is start a conversation with attractive women. Doesn’t have to be long. Doesn’t have to be deep. Just they seem like they might have insight onto something you have a question about. Or they might have seen this weird thing happen at the bar before and what’s that all about? Oh cool, by the way, where are my manners, my name is…

That’s all you’re gonna do. Get used to having conversations. Once you do, once they’re no longer any scarier than your bratty little cousin, you’ll find it much easier to approach women with the intent of flirting and seeing if there’s the possibility of something more.

Good luck.

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DEAR DR. NERDLOVE: I am a guy in my early 20’s and just finished my fifth term at university. This term I’ve began studying a new subject in a new class. We’re a small class – no more than 15 people – so everyone knows everyone, and we meet several times a week both during and outside of lectures. I’m really glad that I have begun this class, because for the first time in a long time I really feel a sense of community and belonging, something which you have pointed out the importance of before, and I’ve grown fond of my fellow classmates.

Now, as you may have guessed there is a girl in this class, whom I have taken to like. Of course, it’s hard not to, she is a wonderful person. Kind, funny, honest, social, considerate, interesting, trustworthy, emotionally deep, etc. Just this week, one morning we were both about an hour early for class and practically alone on campus because it was so early. We sat down with a cup of coffee and had a conversation on our own, which is a rare occurrence given us people in the class mostly meet each other in groups, we are a class after all. I felt like we had an understanding and made a connection during our chat. We spoke confidentially about some things, about life and about ourselves. I revealed to her some things about myself that I don’t really talk with most people about. Nothing extraordinary, just things about my past which I consider private and only reveal to friends I really trust. She revealed some things about her to me, and I felt honoured to be trusted. When we were interrupted by another classmate’s joining us, I felt like we had understood each other, which to me is rare, and that I had taken my connection with this girl to a new level. It felt good.

Now, so far I haven’t mentioned my problem. The problem is that I’m not sure about I how feel about her. To me, love is not just romantic, but also something much bigger than encompasses friendship, family, and even strangers to some degree (love thy neighbour, I think it’s a good principle, actually). And the thing is that as I’ve come to know her more, I also began liking her more and more, and now I like her quite a lot. But I’m not sure whether I like her only as friend or as something more, what I do know I don’t usually feel like this about friends. Which brings me to my next problem.

Which is, that I only want to love her as a friend, a good friend (because I treasure friendship heavily). There are a number of reasons for this; the main one would be that she already has a boyfriend. But even if she didn’t, I think I’d still just want to be friends with her. For one thing, we have lifestyle differences which are incompatible, like she’s at a very different stage of her career than me (I hope to graduate and move away soon, she just began studying at university) and other things. Another thing is the possibility of ruining the potential for a lifelong friendship with a very good person because of a relationship that may only last a few years so. Simply put, I don’t want to be anything else than a platonic friend with her, and it’s mutual (I’m guessing, since she has a boyfriend already).

So then we arrive at my real question and problem. Can I control my feelings? I think it would be very hard to have a crush on her and see her every day for maybe another year. It would be tough, even brutal. The last time I fell in love I landed hard on the ground and had to isolate myself from the girl that I loved in order to reset. But it was some time ago and I’m not sure how I would handle it now. In any case, I’m very unwilling to give up this class now, not only because it gives me a sense of community, but also because the subject is essential for my future career.

So in short my problem is that I am afraid that I will fall in love her (or have already) and that it will be painful and perhaps cost me a good friend. Is this a possible case of oneitis? Or am I merely worrying too much? Can I remain “just” friends with this person? I’m not sure any more and that’s why I’m writing to you for some external input and answers to these questions.

Best regards,

Furnishing The Friend Zone

DEAR FURNISHING THE FRIEND ZONE: I think you’re putting several carts before one very confused horse, FtFZ. Before you start worrying about whether you’re going to end up with a crush on her and unable to be friends and this is going to make you miserable… how’s about you deal with things as they are now. One of the problems I see fairly often are guys – and girls too, but mostly guys – who round up “woah, I met someone cool!” up into “THIS IS A LOVE TO LAST THE AGES” before you’ve they’ve so much as had a second cup of coffee together. Which is cute, I guess, in an excited puppy kind of way, but a little less so in grown-ass adults.

Now, this happens because of a couple of issues.

The first is that guys tend to raised to not handle or express their emotions – especially not around guys. It’s part and parcel of the toxic masculinity package; when you’re not allowed to be emotionally vulnerable to anyone, those emotions sit and fester inside you. When you’re finally able to let them out, it feels amazing and liberating. You feel connected with people in ways you hadn’t been before because there was this part of you you felt that you had to keep to yourself. And if you’re not used to feeling emotional intimacy and closeness with people, especially people who aren’t family, then it’s easy to mistake that feeling for romantic inclinations.

The other issue that tends to coexist within this particular milieu comes about when guys don’t often interact socially with women except in a primarily romantic context. Because guys often see women as potential sexual or romantic partners first and friends/colleagues/what-have-you second, you get a lot of confusion over what is otherwise basic social interaction. Politeness and niceness gets mistaken for flirting or interest because guys are using romance as the filter to view the interaction and make their assumptions accordingly. The problem here is that, frankly, platonic friendship between men and women tends to be devalued. You can see it everywhere – from terms like The Friend Zone1 to using the phrase “just” friends, as though friendship were inconsequential or less important than a romantic or sexual relationship.

And when you combine these with the social discouragement for guys to open up emotionally to other guys… well… now things get awkward.

Case in point: you, FtFZ. You’ve had a great, surprisingly open and intimate conversation with someone and you’re feeling pretty awesome about things. But because you had that conversation and you’re floating on the good feelings that came with it, you’re feeling as though this could be love instead of a potentially awesome friend. You’re rounding up based on a whole lot of assumptions and no real evidence and making an issue where there really isn’t one in the first place.

The best thing you can do for yourself and your friendship here is to slow your roll. You’re assuming love is inevitable when in reality, it may never even be a thing. Not if you keep your head and realize that feeling good around someone, even being attracted to them isn’t the same thing as love. Nor, for that matter, is it a mandate. You can be attracted to somebody and not do anything about it. You can just let those feelings exist without having to act on them, whether acting is in trying to get a date or trying to shove them away and pretend that you don’t feel the way you do.

What you need to do is to stop thinking “Oh god, what if I fall in love?” and start thinking “woah, she’s awesome, I made a new friend!” Stop telling yourself the story of your future hopeless crush and focus on the present of “awesome person and you may be close friends for a long time.”

Good luck.

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