DEAR ABBY: I am a woman in my late 30s. I am on my second marriage. I was 18 when I married the first time and we had two children. We divorced while the children were young. I met another man and married him within a year. We have one child together.

Abby, I am very unhappy because I have never experienced being on my own. I have such a strong desire to do this that it is making my life miserable. I can hardly stand being home and am starting to resent my family. I love them very much, but I feel that I have missed out by never having lived as a single person. I can't imagine leaving this earth without making this one dream come true.

Sometimes on the way home from work, I feel like driving past my house without stopping. I know that isn't the right way to handle this. I'm so torn. Please help. -- WONDERING WHAT I'M MISSING

DEAR WONDERING: First of all, stop looking at living alone as an unrealized dream and think of it as a fantasy. Instead of glamorizing life alone, consider for a moment the drawbacks -- lonely nights, increased responsibilities, financial pressures, etc. Everyone wonders what life is like on the other side of the fence. Usually, reality is far different from the idealized mental image.

Talk to your husband about ways for you to have time alone: a weekend retreat, or a couple of evenings a month with female friends or by yourself. A creative compromise could save your marriage, not to mention your sanity. So please stop wondering what you're missing and thank the good Lord for what you have.

DEAR ABBY: My fiance and I are planning our wedding for later this year. We love each other very much. Rarely has there been a cross word between us. We both have good jobs, our families are extremely supportive and, God willing, our future seems bright.

The problem is my fiance's upcoming bachelor party. His friends have promised to make it a "night to remember." From what I've heard, these parties have gotten wild to the point that the strippers become completely nude and dance in the faces of the men. One prospective groom had sex with one of the hired "dancers" for a last fling!

These guys think it's funny. I think it's horrible. When two people are committed to each other, why does the man need a group of naked women to paw at?

I wake up thinking about this, and I'm even considering backing out of the wedding. Is this any way to start a marriage, and am I alone in these feelings? -- ANXIOUS BRIDE

DEAR ANXIOUS BRIDE: You are not alone in your feelings, and this is no way to start a marriage. Remember, however, that the stories you have heard about past parties may be greatly exaggerated, a combination of locker room mentality and the need to brag.

Express your concerns to your fiance. If he is mature and sensible, he will respect your feelings and opt for a more appropriate bachelor party.

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DEAR ABBY: My wife and I are separated and in the process of getting a divorce. I have a 9-year-old stepson from this marriage whom I love very much. I'll call him "Nicky." We are very close, and I continue to see Nicky and participate in his life as much as I did before the separation. I'm the only father he has ever known.

The problem is my parents. They have refused to have anything to do with Nicky since the separation. They ignored his birthday and refuse to attend any of his ball games. They act like he no longer exists. Nicky is such a fine young man, and he is very hurt by their behavior.

Abby, since I can't change my parents, how can I explain their unkind behavior to Nicky in a way that won't hurt him any more than he's already been hurt? -- SON OF HARD-HEARTED PARENTS

DEAR SON: Be honest with your stepson. Explain that grown-ups do not always do the right thing, and you do not approve of your parents' behavior. Let him know that your parents are acting this way because they blame his mother for the divorce, and have withdrawn from him as a way of punishing her.

Remind Nicky that he has done nothing wrong, and this is not his fault. Assure him that you love him unconditionally.

DEAR ABBY: I've never written to you before, but I think you blew it in your answer to "In the Middle in Tucson." Her sister was so upset about the "tacky gifts" her daughter had received from their brother and his new wife that she severed the relationship with her own brother.

What is this world coming to when we are so shallow that we value gifts over our own flesh and blood? My advice to her would have been: "Lady, wake up! Tell your sister that life is too short to hold a grudge for something as trivial as what kind of a present someone gives."

The wife may not have been deliberately rude; perhaps she was trying to be thrifty. The brother may not even realize where the gifts came from (most men have little to do with gift-buying); maybe their family finances aren't in quite as good shape as she thinks they are. There could a lot of other "maybes" -- and the sister just doesn't realize it.

If something were to happen to her brother before she was able to make things right between the two of them, she would never forgive herself. If she doesn't like the gifts her daughter received from this auntie and uncle, she should shut her mouth and give them to someone who could really use them -- or simply throw them away. But don't destroy a relationship that is a God-given gift.

Abby, I don't mean this letter to be a put-down to you, but your answer seemed to encourage the sister to drive that wedge in more firmly. Family is far too precious to throw away because of something so meaningless. -- ALSO A SISTER IN NORTH CAROLINA

DEAR NORTH CAROLINA SISTER: You misunderstood my answer. The sister who severed the relationship with her brother deserves the lecture you gave her. However, my reply was directed at the OTHER sister, who wondered if she should try to mediate the dispute or stay mum. I told her to encourage her sister to communicate her feelings to her brother, so they could be dealt with in an adult manner.

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DEAR ABBY: My husband and I separated last summer. My daughter was living with me, and my son went to live with his father. For months I tried to work things out with my husband in hopes of saving our 22-year marriage. It was impossible.

At Christmas, my son and his father vacationed together, and my daughter and I spent the holiday at home. Two months later, just after my birthday, my 17-year-old son ran away from his father's apartment. It happened the same day he received his report card. I'm not sure if he left because of our divorce, his poor grades, problems with his father or a combination of things.

I pray my son is reading your column today and sees this letter. I want him to know that the divorce is final and I was granted custody of him. To my son and all other runaways: Please call home. Let your parents know you are OK. Whatever problems there are can be worked out. Life is too short to stay away from those who love you. Please make that phone call today.

Thank you, Abby, for printing this letter. I hope all parents in my shoes hear from their children today. -- MOM MISSING HER SON

DEAR MOM: I'm printing your letter in the hope that some of them will.

If you are a runaway, promise yourself that this is the day you will pick up the phone and let your family know that you are OK. If phoning home is too difficult, call the toll-free National Runaway Switchboard at (800) 621-4000. Your call will be kept confidential, and it could save your life.

DEAR ABBY: I recently visited my sister, "Betty," who wanted to take me shopping to buy me a birthday present. I explained it would be better to give me the money so my wife of four months, "Anne," could approve of the clothes I purchased. I told Betty that Anne had pitched a fit about some of the clothes the family had sent me at Christmas. I liked the clothes, but Anne wants exclusive choice in what I wear. To avoid scenes, I give in. She says I'm not accommodating her feelings when I mix up the matched outfits she picks out for me.

When Betty heard this, she became upset. She said that men can be in controlling relationships just as well as women. Betty's first marriage left her reeling from emotional battering, and she said it took years of counseling to regain her confidence. She said the same thing could happen to me -- men are not immune. Betty warned that soon Anne will try to change my eating habits, my cologne, my job, and finally want me to do something about my bald spot. I didn't tell her, but Anne already has.

I never saw our relationship as controlling, but now I am wondering if my sister's advice to "run as fast as you can" is wise. How do you see this? -- CONFUSED ABOUT CONTROL

DEAR CONFUSED: It's not unusual for a woman to want to make a few changes to improve her husband's (or boyfriend's) appearance. However, the way I see it is not as important as the way you see it. Are you comfortable with the changes Anne is demanding? If you don't mind making these concessions, no harm is being done.

However, if you do mind, stop making changes just to please her. You will soon know if there is a problem. And yes, men can be victims of a controlling relationship, just as women can.

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